Upon reading my friend's blog, my emotion is stirred. Many of us would berate and chide this girl for her selfishness. What is your stand?
The story between them goes like this... My friend has an immeasurable infatuation for this girl, who is attached. Knowing that my friend like her, she has always manipulate my friend's care and concern to her advantage. (Bloody feel like slapping and skinning her alive) Whenever she feels lonely or sad, she will always turn to my friend but at the end of the day, she will ditch him to go back to her boyfriend's embrace.
Her selfishness has created a great emotional turmoil to my friend. I understand that I have no rights to justify her behaviour and I do agree the fact that anything that involves feelings is never rational. Nonetheless, it still doesn't give her the rights to hurt my friend, not once but upteen times. Though I always remind my friend to take it easy and to caste their memories aside, I totally understand that it's easier said than done. The process of recovering from the daunting hurt and forgetting that special one is harrowing. It takes a day to fall in love but a life to forget that special one...
Strangers... (A part from my friend's blog)
"I do not want to be stuck in the quagmire again. Hurt is becoming a feeling that is too often felt. Perhaps, all these hurt felt can condition myself to a faster route of recovery.How can you be a stranger to someone whom you care so much about? When the hurt felt don't make you hate her but make you feel that you asked for it? How can one suddenly not care anymore? How...? In fact, in our 3plus hour of msn conversation just now, we ended on such an amicable note, there were of course heartwrenching moments but there were also lighthearted and cheerful moments that made giving up so hard.You know, this is like the fourth time that this decision is taken, but never ever in the past did I tell her to be cruel. To not contact me in whatever form ever. To not reply to any forms of contact from me if I relapse. My heart has died. Not a single tinge of idealistic hope that we will be together exists anymore. A pity that it is not numb yet. The pain is like an old-time wound been bruised and bloodied again, adding salt onto the old wound and adding new ones. She never fail to increase my pain felt everytime she hurt me. Perhaps, the more pain felt each time also represents the deeper I sink.I told her I will always remember her as the little girl with a sweet blush, will only remember the angel in her and will never forget her. Its true, I have always managed to defend her actions towards me, her thoughts, her feelings, the situation she faces. I don't blame her, I don't hate her, I asked for it.I am moving on. Let this be the last time I said this. I am moving on. Don't renege on your decision again, even if she break up again with her bf, you two are just not meant to be, don't even bother thinking about any possibility of getting together with her in future. Don't ever be that dumb again.Its sinking in...we are going to be strangers."